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i got a C on my test, but a B overall in the business law I class. so that's a A and a B and a C. i hope the grade point gamut stops there. i still need to sign up for next semester and get my tuition reimbursement processed.

the bed is calling me. it's saying nice sweet things, like 'sleep in me, puta.' :~D jk


but before i goCollapse )


i should go see what soap tastes best when washing out the lameness from my mouth. :~D


good night, and good luck.

~~esp
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the revolution is...in here?

i really need to work on myself. i'm hesitant to say so aloud, because my follow through to declarations said aloud sucks (i've not gone to see a therapist as stated should happen a couple of years ago, i've not signed onto classes--though my work sched has more to do with that, and other stuff).

but change--it should be a-coming. a doctor recently informed me i have insulin resistance  which thankfully isn't quite diabetes. but is a precursor of it. some medical articles i read state that it has a side affect of depression.

this finally makes me feel vindicated:  i get really sad sometimes, and the Alien used to get upset when i told him it had nothing to do with him, and that he coudn't fix me. it helps to know that i'm not just crazy. but it also makes it apparent that, when those feelings start, i have to be watchful of my own self-destructive tendencies. they just feed into the downward spiral and feelings of despair.

some of those tendencies recently led me to mar a friedship i hold very dear. luckily those friends have said they've forgiven me. i'm thankful they will overlook my unintentional attempt at burning that bridge; it's up to me to see that it never happens again.

in addition to that, i want to quit tearing myself down. not only for me, but for any kids i might have and/or be an example to. they pick up on everything, even when you'd think they weren't watching. how do i expect them to feel good about themselves when i don't have a healthy relationship with my own person?

well, onto step One: get some sleep, as an adequate amount of it contributes to overall health and mood.

good night, y'all.

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contemplative contemplative
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independent media will inherit the Earth
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dorky dorky
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You're packing your bag for that magical desert island that happens to have electricity, a TV, and a DVD player—what five DVDs do you take with you?
a ~magical~ desert island? none, because, were it truly magical, i would conjure up a plane with a full tank of gas and knowledgeable pilots to take me back home. unless, i really liked it there....does this island have wifi capability? :D

all kidding aside:

Run Lola Run

The Last Unicorn

Children of Men  (scratch that; it might be too depressing given the solitary state i might be in)

if there was a collection of all the Charlie Chaplin movies and shorts on one dvd, that one. (you did say this was magical, ya?)

The Bourne trilogy, if it could be compressed on to one dvd

and, finally,

a dvd on boatmaking.

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Happy birthday, Mr Mike.





(usually i'm bad about remembering most peoples' bdays, but the Alien kept going on and on about how you, the former asshole roommate, and the former roommate who was stinky all had bdays all at the end of this month. so, you lucked out this year ;) )
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In case i forgot to mention:  Slumdog Millionaire is one of the saddest 'feel-good' movies ever. But it is really, really good.
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If you could have any job in the world, what would it be?
billionaire's ex/alimony receiver/successful author//hilariously maniacal hacker/supermathemetician


and that's my short list :D
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Slumdog Millionaire is the saddest 'feel good' movie ever. but i still really, really liked it.
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watch the whole thing. srsly


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amused rofl
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